my dearest,
Just after a few months, I had crossed the line of interest into obsession. There would never be enough that I could get; These bones grew more magnetic and hungry that it began to seep into my bloodstream, affecting my DNA and myself.
ushikita hehe
publication date: 01/18/22
ahhh i can't even describe how i feel about this work anymore. i think that much like the work itself, it was more of me growing as a writer in story-telling. before this, i had focused much less on what high school calls creative writing. if i am being honest, this work was me reviving the creativity i wish i could have forever.
i resonate a lot with the work itself. during the time that i was writing it, i had been going through things that i could not even go back on, reflect on, could not even think about; and that was the birth of the story, really. megumi, you could say, is a self-study of grief and coping with remembrance.
publication date: 02/02/22
my. baby.
as much as i hate to admit it, i had written this in a frenzy of oh-my-god i cant write anymore. it was like i was trying to prove to myself that i do, in fact, exist and that these words are real. it was difficult, however i enjoyed the concept of the story itself, if i am to be honest. i am not the biggest fans of soulmates, but reincarnation? meeting again? having second chances? checkmark. you got me just because it reminds me of hikaru utada's sakura nagashi, which is what was playing 99.9% of the time.
i think my writing, since completing what you love is what loves you and starting this immediately after, had improved. i like it just a bit more, only because i still feel a touch of the characters in this story particularly.
publication date: 02/06/22
have to be honest here; i just really, really needed to intake more grief here. i have dealt with grief that has been stubborn like always, has stuck like gum in my hair that i cannot rid of, and this was a work that meant a lot to me. i find it hard to express just how grief works for me, but if anything; this work is it. you musn't hide yourself from what is there, but you musn't have to reveal your cards simply because you love it, you are adorned in it.
two homes, one love is a study of happiness that can be found from coping properly; which is something i have yet to learn, and this work had set an image for me. you cannot heal in the environment you were hurt in, and now said, 'time will not heal grief'.
you will.
publication date: 03/07/22
thursday boys. i love you. i have loved you and i will continue to love you.
does that say enough? i dont know why, but i have grown fond affections for this work specifically. perhaps it is because for every sentence, every comma or period; i have pondered over it for much too long, i have read it over and over and over until everything had sounded bad, like it had no longer existed.
this work is quite special to me; and one might seem like two homes, one love was a test run of this work, and perhaps it was. it is not that i believe that this work is the best that i could ever be, the best i will ever be, if i ever do become someone or something; f not dead. but, i do believe that thursday boys is the me that was younger, the me that was trying to be and to do everything at once.
publication date: 03/14/22
woo !! this is actually my 4th genshin work? however, it is the first that i have published on this account. the others are lost on anonymous collections, i think hehe. im gonna be honest, this work was merely to satisfy my listening to one summer's day. specifically, i had wanted to write something that made me feel like one summer's day 1:08. the drop is insane, like nostalgically changing and i couldn't get enough of it. it was sorrowing, it was taxing to write this work just because of that drop alone. though, the style in which i wrote this work in, cuts and rather static timeline, i had heavily enjoyed doing ! it was a short, not sweet but let's call it that just to call it that because i am short of pre-existing words, work that i look back on as practice. and extremely, overly, self indulgent..
publication date: 03/26/22
basically. i was having a very, extremely weird and exhausting time. i just kind of, birthed this work out? it mostly complies of experiences that the eldest daughter, like i, experiences from just merely existing and holding those words as a title. if anything, it is so closely based on being the eldest of an immigrant family. i wanted to write the experiences of tsumiki, our main character in this particular work, because she has barely been shown at all in the manga. well, her story; at least. honestly, the fushiguro family still confuses me to a point, and therefore i had, had to write this to further my understanding of what happened, and what could've happened to tsumiki in a more sombre way than the manga would.
publication date: 03/19/22
more.. more sibling content !!
to be honest, i just really wanted a character study on nezuko. it had originally started as a more refined version of my work the long haul, as i was in the midst of writing and editing that work for a long while before even thinking of writing this one, and was in tanjirou's pov !! as one of my favourite shounen protagonists, even overall favourite characters, tanjirou's dynamic is something i hold dearly. however, i found myself coming too close to my own core while writing this in his pov; it didn't feel like how i wanted to, didn't sound like it, and i grew frustrated once more with the idea of being unable to write. however, once i begun writing in nezuko's pov, i was closely connected to the surface; that is exactly how i wanted to be here, the surface of her character and the intimacy between events and emotions.